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domingo, 22 de diciembre de 2019

ADVIENTO - El hada que le costaba integrarse

El hada que le costaba integrarse


Cuento sobre la integración social

Cuando los rayos del sol iluminaban el bosque, las hadas volaban sobre los árboles dejando una brillante aureola tras su rápido vuelo. Otras volaban sobre los lomos de los unicornios. Todas se dirigían al centro del bosque a celebrar el día de las hadas que se festejaba una vez al año.

Al llegar al lugar, algunas comenzaron a tocar el violín, unas la flauta y otras el arpa celta. Las demás bailaban y entre risas y saltos formaban un círculo mágico.

El valor de la integración social
Mientras todas disfrutaban, el hada Marcia permanecía aislada porque le costaba mucho integrarse socialmente. 

Y conforme iban pasando las horas, ya en la noche, en su angustia, decidió alejarse lo más que pudo del grupo. Tanto es así, que voló hacia la luna, se sentó sobre ella y desde allí comenzó a llorar.

Sus lágrimas empezaron a caer sobre el bosque formando pequeños charquitos de lágrimas. Las demás hadas al mirar hacia arriba la descubrieron y entendieron el por qué de sus lágrimas.

_ ¡Debemos ayudarle a integrarse!_ dijo el hada Iris.

En ese instante, le comunicó por telepatía que bajara de la luna, pero ésta sólo dejó de llorar y desde arriba observaba en silencio.

Las hadas en su afán por ayudarla, quisieron demostrarle que la integración social es divertida. Por eso usaron como estrategia los juegos y se dividieron en pequeños grupos: grupos de lectura de cuentos, grupos de  juegos de pelota y grupos de ajedrez.

Antes de sentarse, soplaron sobre el suelo para secar los charquitos de lágrimas y luego comenzaron a jugar. El hada Marcia al verlas jugando comenzó a descender de la luna para mirar más de cerca.

Poco a poco continuó acercándose hasta que tímidamente se acercó al grupo de los cuentos. El hada Iris aprovechó el momento y se le acercó amablemente para decirle en secreto:

Para integrarte socialmente sólo debes ser tú misma, tener un poco de paciencia y buscar afinidades.

El hada Marcia dejando fluir una tímida sonrisa, guardó silencio y mirando a su alrededor comenzó a acercarse a los demás grupos.

Al final, entre juegos, cánticos, bailes y risas hizo buenas amistades logrando su total integración. Y se alegró de que existiera el día mágico de las hadas.

Autora: María Abreu

martes, 19 de noviembre de 2019

SOY ASÍ (this is me)

SOY ASÍ (this is me)
Un canto a la diversidad
traducido por Sandra Dermark


No me es extraña la oscuridad…
“Escóndete”, dijeron, “tus defectos mal caerán”…
Mis faltas me fueron a avergonzar…
“Echa a correr de una vez: como eres nadie te querrá”…

No dejaré que nos vuelvan a aplastar,
sé que para nosotros hay un lugar…
Nuestra es la gloria…

Si palabras duras me van a alcanzar,
enviaré un diluvio que las ahogará…
Con valor, con fervor,
soy quien soy y siempre fui;
¡SOY ASÍ!
¡Atención, que aquí vengo yo,
marchando al ritmo de mi corazón!
Con valor, sin temor,
sin perdones que pedir…
¡SOY ASÍ!

Otra descarga da contra mi piel:
¡abran fuego a indiscreción, que herirme no les dejaré!
Y, luchando en estas barricadas,
aspirando al sol,
¡SOMOS GUERREROS!
Todo convicción…

No dejaré que nos vuelvan a aplastar,
sé que para nosotros hay un lugar…
Nuestra es la gloria…

Si palabras duras me van a alcanzar,
enviaré un diluvio que las ahogará…
Con valor, con fervor,
soy quien soy y siempre fui;
¡SOY ASÍ!
¡Atención, que aquí vengo yo,
marchando al ritmo de mi corazón!
Con valor, sin temor,
sin perdones que pedir…
¡SOY ASÍ!

Sé que tengo derecho a vuestro amor…
pues no hay dignidad que nos merezca un no…

Si palabras duras me van a alcanzar,
enviaré un diluvio que las ahogará…
Es valor, es fervor,
ser quien soy y siempre fui;
¡SOY ASÍ!
¡Atención, que aquí vengo yo,
marchando al ritmo de mi corazón!
Es valor, sin temor,
sin perdones que pedir…
¡SOY ASÍ!

Si palabras duras me van a alcanzar,
enviaré un diluvio que las ahogará…
¡SOY ASÍ!



viernes, 1 de noviembre de 2019

COUNTDOWN TO LÜTZEN I: WET FEET



The Mad Hatter before the pond scum debacle (elevator mirror selfie).

Yesterday I walked the streets of Valencia while trick-or-treating as the Mad Hatter. And of course I took to raising the wrist -- a red beer and a shot of some herbal liquor that smelled more like perfume soon went to the head under this badass top hat and revolutionised everything.

I returned home singing villain songs out of key - Be Prepared, Kill the Beast, Masters of the House, Poor Unfortunate Souls, No Batteries, you name it. Then I fell into a pond in the Turia riverbed and landed smack dab on my keister. That splash alone, wet and cold, sufficed to make me sober up and stain my precious Gant-brand shirt and slip-on shoes with pond scum.

martes, 6 de marzo de 2018

ON MAKING LOBSTER THERMIDOR

Last week, I made lobster thermidor for the first time in my short life: to commemorate a 10+ grade I had got at the UV, to reward and encourage myself, so we needed to celebrate and I wanted to try out that recipe like... for ages... it was even on my bucket list to make lobster thermidor and/or have it for supper, and now both these goals are attained and crossed!
I used a live lobster, which I purchased at the local supermarket (we live right across that Consum in Valencia, and there are live lobsters there, in spite of being such a basic supermarket...), named Thermidor (in an unsurprising display of black humour), and kept as a pet for twenty minutes or half an hour, until the water boiled.
Then, it was but waiting until Thermidor was all red and hot, for about a quarter or twenty minutes.





Half an hour of eviscerating the lobster shell and claws (keeping the flesh and putting it back in, of course!) and making béchamel and thermidor sauce (the latter comprised of two glasses of the fumet our lobster and a cube of Knorr fish stock were boiled in, with cream, brandy, Chardonnay, Dijon mustard, and parsley), and five minutes of oven-gratin plus five more of cooling, later, the dish turned actually scrumptious for a beginner.


Nowadays (as of the date this post was published) all that remains, for a keepsake, is a block of frozen thermidor sauce in our freezer, with a handwritten label on it that says:

THERMIDOR
sauce for seafood

So that we don't forget what that block of pale mustard-yellow ice with chunks of parsley is, as well as what to be served with it.
Someday pretty soon, there will be prawns thermidor for supper, to finish off what was left after the lobster shell was emptied by us.

ESAS HUCHAS DEL DOMUND


En octubre del 98, a los seis años,
dejé el colegio de las Carmelitas,
como en este blog os he explicado.

Os he hablado de monjas vampiras
y apóstoles con cara de Mars Attacks,
pero eso no es todo lo que había que decir
sobre el Colegio Católico de los Horrores.

También estaban esas huchas del Domund
de cerámica valenciana,
que representaban cabezas de niños
asiáticos o subsaharianos (pero nunca europeos),
sumamente realistas, incluso
a tamaño real:



Y se me erizaba la piel.
Pensaba en niños de otras etnias,
víctimas de la guerra y/o trabajadores forzados,
a los que, después de muertos,
les cortaban la cabeza
y luego enviaban esas cabezas a España
para hacer las huchas de marras.

Aún se me eriza la piel
al mirar estas fotos que he colgado en el blog.
Al menos el vello de la nuca.
Me viene la taquicardia, escalofríos...

Por aquel entonces,
me encantaba leer y colorear
mis cuadernos de Pilarín Bayés
destinados a recaudar para Manos Unidas:
"Rasoa sueña", "Sianúa Corazón Alegre"...
Eran conmovedores, bellamente ilustrados
y por una buena causa.

De hecho, aquel otoño llegué a temer
que tuviera entre mis manitas de nieve
la cabecita de Rasoa o la de Sianúa
(o alguna modelada con la suya como molde).
Era algo visceral.
Me sentía exactamente como Hamlet
cuando asía el cráneo de Yorick y le recordaba.

 O como esta Pandora de Alma Tadema, dudando de si destapar la caja.

Hoy en día, esas huchas no sólo me dan miedo
por ser cabezas tan realistas,
sino también por la grima que provoca el racismo.
Miedo, ira, e invitemos al asco a la fiesta.
De paso.

En alguna que otra ensoñación,
rompo huchas del Domund a diestro y siniestro,
estrellándolas contra el suelo.


martes, 24 de octubre de 2017

TAROT - HORSESHOE SPREAD - RENTRÉE UV

Horseshoe Spread
24th of October, MMXVII
On the Eve of:
Rentrée - Master's Degree in Creative Translation - University of Valencia

1) Forces In Favour: XIII Transfiguration (Death). Change, of the life-changing kind. Metamorphosis: Coming of age, passage from Castellón to Valencia and from Bachelor's to Master's Degree.
2) Forces Against: King of Swords. Authority on the Intellectual Plane. The UV establishment? Surely. A centuries-old, renowned, illustrious institution with whose establishment my stubborn self may clash.
3) Resources to Encourage Forces in Favour: Six of Swords. The passage of the Styx (Charon, Urshanabi) - transition. Murky waters astern, but calm waters ahead. Keep looking forwards, instead of over your shoulder. It will be all right on the other shore.
4) Resources to Overcome Forces Against: XVI The Tower. Revolution. Downfall that brings about something good, overturning the old order. Razing the established structures. The fall of the Bastille... Right, this is the big leagues, so the rules of young adulthood of the past lustrum are becoming obsolete. Time to storm the inner Bastille and get serious.
5) Turning Point: Eight of Cups. Turning one's back to the old and setting off on a quest for the new, for what is missing. Into the great unknown where there are dragons and where angels fear to tread.

Conclusion:
Great changes straight ahead. Keep moving forwards and never look back as you tread this new uncharted region. You're not in Castellón anymore...

sábado, 13 de mayo de 2017

WITH THE PETALS ON AND ALL

I have chosen to write my own queer retelling of Othello set in the present day. Replacing "Moor" with "woman" and taking, for instance, a few extra clues from the 1001 Nights tale of the Three Apples:
"These ones will do perfectly, Christelle. With the petals on and all; worth spending five euros on indeed." And indeed, they were glittering and scarlet like rubies, each one with a few petals still attached to the calyx, the strawberry's green "hat", like an Elizabethan collar. "Luna will surely love them." 
Strawberries in winter... it felt that placing a jewelled sign of my right to have Luna on her left ring finger (like a flag placed on conquered country) was not enough. It felt that confronting Luna's mum about the fact that her daughter was free to choose whoever she pleased as her partner, even another girl, and that she put all her weaponry of pluck on display to call the old lady out and make her surrender to reality, was not enough. Now one year later in mid-February, in between her birthday and Valentine's, I wanted to surprise Luna with her favourite berries, even if acquiring them out of season would come at great expense. 
Then it all went wrong, more or less. 
It all began with my fall-out with Killian; the three of us were roomies in the best of ways three attractive, learned young people can be; and he was perfectly fine with our relationship, supporting all kinds of free love, even joking that he would be the best man (though Luna and I never meant to get married). 
Then came the day when Killian was late for home after class, right the afternoon after I bought the strawberries... "Surely cramming for our Terminology exam," I thought while Luna and I were having a date over a cup of star anise tea. At least he had said that he would cram some more as usual. The sun set and he didn't come home until half past ten (as Luna and I would commonly stand on the balcony and remark on how wonderful the stars were and how wonderful was the power of love), reeling and flushed with liquor, with a black left eye, surely from a drunken fight he had got into. 
Maybe I was a bit too harsh when I told him that he'd stay in our room but never help us at class or with our projects (including the task of chaperoning us in certain places by posing as my sweetheart). 
The next day, the day I noticed the strawberries were somehow missing, Luna told me I maybe had been a little too harsh with Killian. "Anyone can get drunk and have a row, Christelle; and maybe it wasn't a lie in the first place, just a little invitation for a drink as he came home in the evening..." What would Luna herself, given her proper lady personality, know about this? So I honestly told her I would give it some time to think. 
It was after Luna's intercession that I remembered the strawberries and looked for them all over the place. Missing, as if vanished into thin air. Which made me think: "Have I actually spent five euros on these out-of-season berries which decay rapidly in the long run? You're a fool, Christelle. Should have bought assorted chocolates, or a hairpin to pin her golden braid, instead!" 
The next day, strawberries still on my mind, making me even miss the last pre-exam test of Terminology class, I had my appointment. With my personal headshrink, Dr. Jakobsson. Maybe her homophobic comments of so-called "better judgement" played a part in the grand scheme of things as well. 
So "How has this month been, Christelle?" and I gave my whole account of the strawberries, my worries about five euros' worth of fruit covered in mold and maggots, Luna's intercession and Killian's black eye. 
"Have you ever stopped to wonder..." Idun Jakobsson told me, her hazel eyes scrying my whole person like the Terminator, "...if what you two felt was actually love? What if this were all a trick of Luna's to appear less conservative, tricking her mother and that circle of high society into believing that she was more open-minded?" I was also told to watch Luna closely and to give it time to think as well... 
Little did I know that my own habit of jumping to conclusions would play an even more sinister trick on me. 
It came to light, as Valentine's was about to dawn, that Luna and Killian were rather close to each other; she would often put an ice pack on his left eye and give it a peck of a kiss afterwards, and that's how his black eye got better. At least then I thought that I would have done the same in the first place if I hadn't been so disappointed... well, maybe he had got tempted to have a drink on his way home that evening after all! 
The killing blow, however, came in between classes on Valentine's. Right as Luna and I sat down to cram on our usual bench, keeping this time a slight distance between us, in sauntered Killian (his black eye now dwindled to a beauty mark on his left cheek) with a box of fresh strawberries, some of which kept their soft white petals attached to the calyces. 
"A gift from my sweetheart," he confidently told us. "Must have been really expensive to get them out of season... and have a look; this one's still got the petals!" 
In response, I stormed out of their presence, my eyes swimming in tears. I spent about an hour kicking and punching a linden trunk in a fit of rage, without drying up those tears. It felt like a gunshot to the heart, a gunshot that furthermore had come from behind, and only cowards and traitors get to strike their victims in the back... 
The next day... I don't remember exactly what I did to Luna, which insults I called her, where my fists and feet landed on her lilywhite skin... I didn't even care about her pleas. My head and my heart were so clouded that everything else paled away in the shade of the strawberries. 
The next day, on the 15th, the light dawned upon everything, and my life and Luna's would never be the same. That night, we slept in separate beds, and I could hear her sobbing all night long, keeping me awake and racked with remorse. 
First of all, upon taking the yoghurt out of the fridge for breakfast (while Luna was still in her own bed, having locked herself in her room), I discovered the strawberries right behind it, where they had been all along... 
The next reveal concerned the procedence of Killian's strawberries; as I pondered after class how my own impulsivity could have led to this debacle ("What have you done, Christelle?"), I spotted him next to another young man, this one with a ponytail, who seemed to be elated about the black eye having finally healed. 
"Merci, Étienne!" Killian told the other boy before cheerfully explaining that not many valentines receive fresh strawberries in winter, and that the petals were the nicest touch of them all. Étienne said he was glad his chou-chou had liked it before giving Killian a kiss, a really long kiss, and I just stood there, in the shade of a column, all eyes and ears, the blood freezing in my veins. 
I really wanted to ask Luna for forgiveness, but when I came home I found every room empty and two handwritten notes fixed with magnets on the fridge; Killian had moved into Étienne's flat, while Luna had returned to her mother's estate. She had written it was a mistake to fall in love with me, but the pain had made her wiser and hardened her heart, nevermore to give her heart to anyone else. 
So now that both my friends are gone, I (an orphan, an only child, a lesbian with Asperger syndrome) am Napoleon at St. Helena; the great warrior past her prime, living on memories and regrets. 
My greatest concern right now is passing this last exam. Also, I hate strawberries, especially those with the petals on... but the sight of even those without the petals makes my heart race and my blood turn to ice.

jueves, 27 de abril de 2017

THANKFULLY, I CAN STILL BLOG

To every stage of life its issues.
Honestly, how many twenty-somethings haven't had their wisdom teeth taken out?
I mean, it hurt and it bled already when they popped up in my late teens (but that was the least of my concerns, compared to Maths and bullying...).
Now, at 25, I have undergone the fated surgery... and now I'm typing sans both my left wisdom teeth (fortunately, I've got none on the right side!!), restricted to a stay-at-home regime and to a diet of soup and fruit juice.
Without pain relief, it would feel like having taken a bayonet, or Robert Baratheon's hammer in a fit of rage, to the left side of the face. Luckily there are painkillers, so at least it feels like a mean hook; I mean, my left cheek is only more slightly swollen than the right (aside from redder and hotter)... It's NOT "like having the mumps but only on the left"!!
At least I can blog. At least I can still blog. And wish my readership never to undergo such excruciating pain...

viernes, 24 de marzo de 2017

SCHEIN UND SEIN / OMOTE TO URA

In Phantásien wird nämlich nicht unterschieden zwischen Gut und Böse: Alle Wesen sind gleich wichtig. Führt man sich Endes poetisches Konzept vor Augen, wird verständlich, warum das so ist: Kunst ist wie ein Traum. Sie belehrt nicht, sondern stellt dar. Was wäre Shakespeares Othello ohne Jago, was Macbeth ohne die böse Lady? Träume kann man nicht moralisch werten. Die Darstellung des Bösen ist nicht böse, die des Heiligen nicht heilig.

Sometimes cross-cultural notions existing across Eurasia can further us in our understanding of Shakespeare. Let's take the case of Schein vs. Sein (appearance vs. reality) in German and the corresponding omote (literally, "obverse") vs. ura (literally, "reverse") in Japanese, for instance. Schein/omote refers to the image of the self that the public gets to see, the façade, the face one shows to the world, how one wants to be regarded and remembered; while Sein/ura is the true self, including secrets, flaws, bad habits, the dark side... that only friends, relatives, and significant others get to know (aside from the self). Both dichotomies refer, long story short, to the public image as opposed to the private image of a person. For the Japanese still to our days, and early modern Westerners as well, a lot of time is spent on differentiating these two aspects of life.

Well we all have a face
that we hide away forever,
and we take them out and show ourselves
when everyone has gone...
Some are satin, some are steel,
some are silk and some are leather;
they're the faces of the stranger,
but we love to try them on...


Well, we all fall in love,
but we disregard the danger:
Though we share so many secrets,
there are some we never tell...
Why were you so surprised
that you never saw the stranger?
Did you ever let your lover see
the stranger in yourself?


You may never understand
how the stranger is inspired,
but he isn't always evil
and he isn't always wrong...
Though you drown in good intentions,
you will never quench the fire:
You'll give in to your desire
when the stranger comes along.

(PS. "omote/ura" can literally mean "obverse/reverse", "heads/tails" [of a coin], "Earth side/dark side" [of the Moon] but this is about their metaphorical meaning.)
As an Asperger and obsessive whose closet of flaws is always shut and who looks like a plain vanilla muggle right off the bat (no muteness or echolalia, no sunglasses or seeing-eye dogs, no wheelchair...) I am concerned, unusually for a Continental Western European of the present day, about this Schein/Sein or omote/ura dichotomy. Few know about my pet peeves (things like my convictions that the week should always begin on Monday and the decimal metric system is the right one, for instance), compulsive rituals to exorcise my obsessions, phobias... So I have created a second, virtual omote/Schein which I use to rant and rave at aspects of the Anglo worldview I dislike when I am not squeeing over things I completely adore. Yes, that third self of mine is Miss Dermark the blogmistress.
Now this dichotomy is one of the vertebral axes of Othello, as expected of a play dealing with identity and the loss thereof. The story has every character but Iago (we'll return to Iago soon, since his true self is the puzzle to end all Shakespearean puzzles) is wearing a cracked mask and what we witness is their Sein, their ura, seeping through that fissure out into the light as the mask shatters. We humans are all wearing such cracked masks and are extremely concerned, Europeans or Asians, even in our days, abou their possible shattering.
-- Yes, indeed, and Othello always provokes a lot of interesting commentary.--
--Things go wrong, though, on the night of the celebration of the dispersal of the Turkish fleet. Cassio gets drunk. Iago, acting through the agency of Roderigo, manages to embroil Cassio in a fight. As a result of which, he's cashiered. He loses his position. Othello, who appears to be in the middle of consummating his marriage, is brought from his bed and has to break up the fight. "Why, how now, ho!" he says, "From whence ariseth this? Are we turn'd Turks, and to ourselves do that which heaven hath forbid the Ottomites?" Are we turned Turks?--
--The brilliantly sophisticated thing about the play, a sophistication, perhaps, akin to that of this work of art, is that nothing is quite as you expected.
You can look at this dish one way and the flowers appear to be in the shape of a heart, Look at them another way, and they don't. It repays endless attention. That's what a great work of art always does. So too with Othello. Look at it one way and it looks as though the threat is of the Turk, but look at it another way, and you see that the threat comes from within. In the end, what brings about the tragedy Othello's downfall, his barbarism, is not some outside force, some other culture, some alien, but Iago, the (ostensibly) super-sophisticated.--
It's no surprise that "ura" itself in Japanese is the lexis, the verbal root, of "uragiru", to betray. Or of "urabanashi", gossip/inside story; or "uragane", what we call bribing or "dirty/black/blood money." To be ironic is "ura no iu". The reverse side in Japanese has the same connotations as the left in the West, while the obverse, like the right in our culture, is laden with prestige. Consider "omote datsu", to become public; "omote-muki", public or formal; "omote wo tateru", putting up a front; "omote wo tsukurou", keeping up appearances; "omote wo haru," keeping up a façade; and "omote kanban", figurehead.
We'll refer also a lot to two concepts in particular. One of them is "ura wo kaku", to counterplot/outwit. (Kaku means angle or corner) And the other is "ura-omote", which can read either to mean "inside out" or "two-faced person." A title which can actually apply to Iago as well. Is he trolling the whole Cypriot officer class? Or is he scheming for revenge? Or is he gay and his motivation is unrequited love? Or something completely different altogether? That's the Rubik's Cube of this tragedy. Being obviously a cube, or hexahedron, the puzzle created by Rubik Ernõ (in Eastern name order; in Western order, given name first, it would be Ernõ Rubik) has got no proper obverse and reverse: something has to be two-sided for these concepts to apply.
Basically, everyone in Othello but Iago is a playing card, a hidden playing card in poker or maybe in a tarot spread. While Iago himself is a Rubik's Cube with a lot of different facets --six facets, one per every other character-- and a riddle so difficult to crack that oodles of problem-solvers have each and every one given their own version.
Right now, RIGHT NOW, I am thinking about the Korsvägen station in Gothenburg one afternoon, while waiting for the tram to come. A young man who looked neither too Scandinavian nor too Mediterranean was solving and unsolving a Rubik's Cube on the station by my side, the whole puzzle of many riddles or riddle of many puzzles constantly at his fingertips, no matter how convoluted.
But most of us lack the skill that both puzzle cube solvers and psychopaths, AKA Iagos, have a reason to impress us with. I, the foreign girl from the provinces, meant to return home when autumn came, was the Hamilton to his Burr, but also the Cassio to his Iago in a certain sense. Maybe what I know about classical literature and epic fantasy and anime was beyond his reach. That geek side of me is, in another sense, my ura, my reverse side, only known to family and fellow geek friends; it caused my ostracism as an awkward secondary and high school girl. Right now I am wearing a Ravenclaw scarf as I type these lines. That's a real heart-on-sleeve gesture of flipping identity, or omote-ura, that Iago will not dare for fears that carrion crows should peck his heart out. Every single Othello character but Iago gets their own omote-ura moment --after all, the pitch black core of a Rubik's Cube, unlike its six colourful faces, is meant never to be seen--. And all of them come more or less as identity crises. It's more like being laughed at by others for wearing a Ravenclaw scarf, be it for the sake of being a Potterhead or for being not a Gryff or Slyth. Iago never wears his heart upon his sleeves, but he tears up the chest of everyone else to expose their hearts, their obverse selves. And for that he cleverly employs malicious gossip or urabanashi --a photo of me with that Ravenclaw scarf on taken by one of the highschool vipers if she had recognized me this evening, and shared among her posse of friends on WhatsApp or a social network group, would do exactly the same harm as that strawberry handkerchief and the drunken brawl that came before it.


Well we all have a face
that we hide away forever,
and we take them out and show ourselves
when everyone has gone...
Some are satin, some are steel,
some are silk and some are leather;
they're the faces of the stranger,
but we love to try them on...



Arrigo Boito sums up the many faces of Iago in his characterisation notes for the Verdian opera:
He must be handsome and appear genial and open and falsely bonhomous; everyone believes him to be honest except his wife who knows him well. If he did not possess great charm and an appearance of honesty he could not be the consummate deceiver that he is.
One of his talents is the faculty he possessses of changing his personality according to the person to whom he happens to be speaking, so as to deceive them or to bend them to his will.
Easy and genial with Cassio; ironic with Roderigo; apparently good-humoured, respectful and humbly devoted towards Othello; brutal and threatening with Emilia; obsequious to Desdemona. Such are the basic qualities, the appearance and the various facets of this man.
Just stop and consider how everyone's Sein comes to light, their masks shatter, and their hearts are displayed in the light of day, throbbing, bloody, when their respective ribcages are metaphorically torn up!

Well, we all fall in love,
but we disregard the danger:
Though we share so many secrets,
there are some we never tell...
Why were you so surprised
that you never saw the stranger?
Did you ever let your lover see
the stranger in yourself?

The friendzoned and brokenhearted suitor who just won't give up is lured to pay his fortune, in so-called uragane or Judas money, in exchange for what he believes is self-confidence, staying equally awkward and equally desperate at heart, which makes him doubt the schemer at the end of the day.
The dashing, charming lieutenant gets persuaded to drink on duty and starts a brawl under the influence, which causes his fall from grace. He therefore doubts he can be reinstated if he tries on his own at the startover of his career. And, in involving his lady friend, it all snowballs into the end of his career and those he loves... said friend and his commanding officer role model, in spite of the fact that said CO has finally forgiven his initial offense. All of this for a drink more before the changing of the guard!
The happily married kind-hearted young lady tries to bridge the gap between her husband and her friend, only to realise that she is accused by the former of having an affair with the latter, suffering marital abuse and ultimately dying young and violently at the hands of her own spouse, while honestly defending the truth and her own purity and sincerity.
The lieutenant's fiancée, whom he basically friendzones out of fear of commitment, snaps out of the suspicion that he's found his equal in a girl of his own standing. Fortunately, she doesn't take it as far as the general does, being used to his ways and her heart staying intact.
The young lady's husband, a confident general of fortune madly in love with her and with another raison d'être than warfare since he met her, snaps even more dreadfully out of the suspicion that she's found her equal in a man of her own standing. It leads his wartime trauma to resurface when his heart breaks, turning him into an insane Untermensch or beast that relishes abuse and even kills his former beloved "for love" and for her to break no more hearts... and who subsequently commits ritual suicide upon realising the truth and coming to grips with the shock of reality.
The schemer's own wife is used to putting up a brave face, to dissociate her own omote and ura, due to her spouse's mistreatment... but her lady's suffering, mirroring her own in a younger and more innocent victim that is far more fragile, makes her convictions waver. It takes losing Desdemona for good to make her turn the corner, that "kaku" mentioned above, on the schemer by tearing out a few squares of Iago's Cube, as I once did as a preteen kid to my own Rubik just because I was curious and in the dissecting phase of my life: whether live large bugs and frogs, and lizards... speaking dolls, stuffed animals, or simple devices like a Rubik's Cube, I was always curious to see what it was like inside. And, to be earnest, the core of the Cube looked and still looks pretty anti-aesthetic to me.
If Pink Floyd had named their CD Earth Side of the Moon, it wouldn't have the same ring to it --and neither would it fit the iconic prism-rainbow sleeve that we all know and adore. In my sci-fi uchronia retelling of the Satomi Hakkenden (a story in whose original Japanese hypotext Kakutaro or Daikaku --one of the eight chosen ones-- is, like Othello, tricked by mistake into doubting his young wife's faithfulness), the Nazis do not settle exactly on the Earth side of the Moon either. The dark side is the one that fascinates us.
Back to the "kaku", the corner. It's the hinge, the turning point, where it's NEITHER obverse NOR reverse. The German has no third liminal stage between Schein and Sein, while the Japanese has omote-kaku-ura. A playing card or a coin has a kaku in the form of the edge, while a spherical object like the Moon ostensibly lacks a kaku --unless in its half phase, when it shows fifty-fifty equal proportions of dark and Earth side. But still it's an illusion. As illusive --illusory and elusive-- as Iago's true catalyst.

You may never understand
how the stranger is inspired,
but he isn't always evil
and he isn't always wrong...
Though you drown in good intentions,
you will never quench the fire:
You'll give in to your desire
when the stranger comes along.